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Love, Happiness, Laziness and My Truth

The Honest Truth of Weight Gain

The Honest Truth of Weight Gain

So for the last few months I have been living in a sea of denial and love. Don’t get me wrong I love being in a relationship but along with with my new found love, comes the hardest truth I feared has come true. From the beginning I had been aware that when people first start dating and getting into that happy spot they tend to get lazy, from wanting to spend every moment with each other. Going into this relationship with Larry I knew this was a huge possibility, and something I could easily fall prey to.

After feeling like I was gaining weight and avoiding getting on the scale, I decided to get onto the scale tonight and for the first time in a year and half I felt like a complete and utter failure. For so long I had stayed at the same 4 pound area but tonight for the first time since my surgery I can honestly say I have gained 15 pounds. Which may not sound like a lot, but when I am not at my goal weight an additional 15 pounds is not only heartbreaking but also a complete and utter defeat in my progress. To be honest this is the most hurtful and most heartbroken I think I have felt in a year and half. While Larry laid in bed tonight sleeping to get ready for work, (he works nights as a truck driver) I found myself laying on my bathroom floor sobbing and wailing at the disappointment I felt in myself. After enjoying my pitty party for about 15 minutes  I knew I had to pick myself up off the bathroom floor and instead of wallowing in the obvious weight gain I had to DO something about this. This is not the END of my journey, it is only the beginning. And the truth is we all fall off the wagon, the decision comes in do we stay there and give up and wallow in our pity or pick ourselves and do something about it? After all I have been through to get to where I am I refuse to give up. I refuse to give for MYSELF first and foremost, but also for my girls, my grandson, my love Larry and my new found family.

So being who I am, and the whole reason I created this blog was to give the HONEST brutal truth, and the truth is I got happy and LAZY. I do not hardly go the gym anymore, I find excuses all the time most of them being I want to spend time with Larry or I am tired. But the truth is I have used Larry and our new relationship as a crutch or excuse to get lazy and detour my success. I will go into detail about Larry and his weight gain in my next blog post titled “The Struggles of Loving Myself and Someone New”. So I have decided to kick my own butt and get back to the basics, and that means to stop all of my bad habits such as eating unhealthy junk again. Why you ask because let’s be honest junk is just convenient when you are leading a busy lifestyle. But the truth is a little preparation in the kitchen in making healthy snacks and meals for the week is a lot better than junk throughout the week out of convenience.

So I refuse to make a New Years Resolution because to me those just always end in failure, so instead I am using my family and my upcoming marriage the love of my life Larry as my inspiration to make some major changes going forward. These changes will not only be impacting my life but also Larry’s as we both want to lose weight to get back into a healthier lifestyle so that we can enjoy our lives together. So follow me on this journey, share your experiences in the comments section of your weight loss and or gain and struggles we are all in this together. Don’t be ashamed we all fall, but how you go on in the biggest decision in your life. Do you just keep eating and gaining weight, or start to make a change to get your life back?

 

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Single Mom of two girls on a journey to get healthy by losing weight and learning to love herself again!

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