Warning: ksort() expects parameter 1 to be array, object given in /home/bypass/public_html/wp-content/plugins/bbpress/includes/core/template-functions.php on line 316
Learning To Let The Baby Fly |

Learning to Let The Baby Fly

1956771_10201969548585299_3251480712494111128_o So tomorrow is a huge and emotional day for me, and one I pray I get through with some dignity left. Tomorrow my baby is heading off for college and living at the dorms, she will only be 40 minutes away from me but that is still too far for me. My heart is literally swelling with tears and emotions right now as I sit here in my office chair and write these words for the whole world to read. But as Mothers who has not stepped into my shoes and had to sit there with a big smile on our faces and send our babies out into the world and to their first college, it is one of the hardest things I will do.

As many of you know I have told you of my weight loss journey and how it got started but I might not of told you the root of this journey. Not only did I want to lose weight so that I could move on with my life and be healthy and maybe get a job and meet someone but there was one core reason for this. My youngest would be starting college and I knew my daughter she would NOT leave my house to go to school in the health I was. Why? You ask because I was so obese and a hermit crab isolated from the rest of the world, she was afraid if she was not there to be my friend and companion that I might die. This my friends is not a untrue statement at the time, she was my one true friend, my one true person I could laugh with, cry with, share fun times and tough times with. She was more to me than a daughter she was lifeline, and that was a unhealthy thing for her to be, she should of been ONLY my daughter.

10259860_10201969550025335_8374778053606735221_n When in November my friend had her heart attack and I realized I was a walking heart attack, I also realized that in less than a year my daughter would want to go off to college and I was holding her back. Because of my weight and my lifestyle my baby would not be able to explore and find her dreams in life, to grow up to be a strong and independent woman. How selfish of me to put her in that position, what kind of Mother does that? A Mother who was so stuck in her own depression and pain it was hard to get out. Thank God every day that I saw the light and decided something had to be done because I am not sure we would be here today where I am getting ready to move my daughter into her dorm room tomorrow.

I’m not sure if she realizes what I have done so that she can off to college, or how much I have really changed. But my own goal from today and going forward is that she goes off to college and never has to look back and wonder if Mom is doing ok? Because as hard as it is going to be, Mom is much stronger person and she will be ok. Now comes the real hard part and that is the empty nest syndrome. I have been dreading this for a year. And this morning I have made the decision it is time to seek some counseling because I could feel the walls of depression kicking in, and I know that when depression creeps in my eating habits get out of whack and I refuse to go down that road again.

The empty nest syndrome is one I am frankly scared to face, I will be the first to admit it I hate being alone. As nature I am a people person I love to chit chat and get to know people and hang out with people so being home alone all the time is awful. So I am going to try very hard to keep myself busy by finding a job to help get me out of the house more. Figure by being proactive and realizing that this is going to have an effect on me it might lesson how bad I feel. So that got me to looking up great tips for dealing with empty nest syndrom so I figured I would share some of those in case anyone else might need them.

 

Focus your attention on other children still living at home with you.

Take the opportunity to do a deep cleaning of your college kid’s bedroom.

If you have a little more free time, do some of the things you’ve been wanting to do but haven’t been able to.

 

Related posts:

About Angie

Single Mom of two girls on a journey to get healthy by losing weight and learning to love herself again!

Comments

  1. Angie, I give you a lot of credit for recognizing your dependency on your daughter and making some tough changes. My only child is just turning 10 and the thought of her going off to college is so sad! It’s good she will be close by, but still get to have the college experience. Hang in there, Mom!
    Jen recently posted…Crunchy Fried Sesame Lime MaifunMy Profile

  2. It’s so wonderful that you were able to see that you needed to change things so your daughter could experience her dreams. I know that must be hard. My children are still very young but I dread and at the same time look forward to the day they go to college. I’ll be so proud and yet so sad at the same time.
    Hilary @ The RNY Life recently posted…Wordless Wednesday – Cecropia CaterpillarMy Profile

  3. I admit, I’ll never have this because I don’t (and can’t) have children. But this is great advice for those who do!
    Charity recently posted…BE Society August Challenge #13 – VacationMy Profile

  4. Oh man, empty nest syndrome. i have a while before that happens to me but right now I say get them out of the house! But when the time comes I know I’ll be thinking differently. Great post!
    Rachel recently posted…Casual FridayMy Profile

  5. I have a wee while yet before I will experience empty nest syndrome, but this is good advice for when the time comes 🙂 I think it’s great that you changed your way of life (if that is the best way to phrase it) to allow your daughter to experience college, and it’s good that she isn’t too far away from you 🙂
    Fee recently posted…#BEsociety August challenge – day 13My Profile

  6. It is great that you did something about your dependency on your daughter. My mother never did, but that is another story for another time. I wish you the best and pray for you as you start this next stage in your life.
    April recently posted…The Love Dare for Parents Book ReviewMy Profile

Speak Your Mind

*

CommentLuv badge


 Powered by Max Banner Ads