Not letting doubts hold you back

6804_10203104532308454_4450334070408199000_n So this year my nephew Cole had his big birthday party at his local Aquatic center where we could spend the day swimming and relaxing in the sun and spending time with our family members. Last year I remember it was a hot day and I spend it sitting on a picnic table watching my brother and his family, and my sister and her family and my girls having fun playing in the sun. The feeling of wanting to join them was overwhelming but I knew just walking from the car to inside the Aquatic center had taken a toll on me there was no way I would be able to get around the water park and really enjoy myself.

10495056_10203107134133498_3654205532046630654_o Fast forward one year later to today and wow have things changed. Now I am not going to tell you that I woke up this morning all happy and ready to throw on my black swimsuit and sit out with my family members in the sun while I still fat and unattractive. But what I will tell you is that I woke up this morning with the attitude of  YES I am not where I want to be weight wise, but I am a heck of a lot closer than a year ago. Second I am tired of sitting on the sidelines and watching my life passing me by, so as hard as it was. And trust me ask my daughter it was very hard to walk out in front of family members in my swimsuit. But the difference is this year I did it, I did not sit on the sidelines at the picnic tables. This year I was going from pool to pool and walking the entire aquatic center without being out of breath, or embarrassed. I promise you I still doubted myself and I almost didn’t grab my swimsuit this morning, but I am glad that I did not listen to my inner critic and I just went with the flow.

My nieces and nephews had a blast and I had a blast being able to really spend time with them. This is a journey that I am on that is a long one, and I am no where near where I want to be, but I am getting there slowly and surely day by day.

 

 

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Single Mom of two girls on a journey to get healthy by losing weight and learning to love herself again!

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  1. Good for you!! I think one of the most difficult things to do as a “fat” person (I am one myself, so I know) is to actually get up and get out there. I recently started telling myself it was more of a matter of “if they don’t like it, they don’t have to look at me” than it was “I’m fat and shouldn’t do this.” I still won’t wear a bathing suit (no point if you don’t swim LOL), but the confidence boost when you stop letting doubts hold you back is wonderful! Keep it up! :)
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  2. Good for you! I love that you took charge to have a better quality of life!
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  3. Good for you! I look forward to following the rest of your journey :) It looks like everyone had a great time.
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  4. I haven’t known you very long but you are so motivational and inspiring! I am so glad that you have decided to take the journey to better yourself and feel better! there are so many people who just don’t find the inspiration for that! You are awesome!
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  5. Well done! It is these moments that make it all worth while. You are such an inspiration to me Angie, keep it up!
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  6. Angie, I love your attitude and your spirit. I know you are going to meet all of your goals and I’m excited to take this journey with you!
    Jen

  7. I know all to well what it is like sitting out in the sidelines watching everyone else. I admire you taking the step to move in the right direction and trying to enjoy life right along with everyone else.
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